Insecurities of a twenty-something year old
Many claim that your twenties are supposed to be the time of your life.
To be frank, I often feel like I am running low on about anything and everything: energy, time, and money. So here are some insecurities and fears of a person in her late twenties.
Money talk
Financial literacy is something I only stumbled upon in my early twenties. I was (sometimes am) awfully overwhelmed by the overflow of information, complicated explanations of ways to deal with money, and more. Now in my late twenties, I am learning about investing, budgeting, etc. and I feel like I am late to the game. Because money was a topic that was not talked about without the attachment of shame, I make it my habit to talk about it transparently and that has helped me A TON!
Where the hell is my TIME
I scroll a lot - doomscrolling to be exact and I know that that is a habit that has been eating up my time. My feed consists of gardens, recipes, cute cottages and travel destinations mainly, which is cute! But you know what is not cute? My average screen time per week. Aside from bad habits however, I also wonder if I am doing too much. Looking at my calendar it always seems packed with “to do’s” and not enough “rest”. Please recommend time management books to me, I’d appreciate that very much!
Occupation
In my early twenties I went through a wide range of jobs, because they were a necessity on the one hand and adventures I embarked on out of curiosity on the other hand. I worked as a cleaning staff in a burger shop, I was a retail worker, had office jobs, worked in a bank during summer, was a babysitter, social media manager, and more. Yet I still don’t quite have a “dream job” I know that I want to be able to be creative in my work field, but I also thrive on routine and order.
Why am I always tired?
Period
What happens during all phases of a menstrual cycle? I know. I’m almost embarrassed to admit that as a person who menstruates, I only know about the topic of menstruation, hormonal (im-)balance, and health on the surface. I have only started reading about periods and how hormones affect bodies recently and there is still so much to be uncovered, starting from questions such as: Why can I lift twice the usual weight in phase x and then can barely lift the usual amount of weight during week y? How can I support my body best with food and digestion? Is this normal? —> a question I ask a lot.
Let’s talk about sex
Yes, I just said that. Again, coming from a household and growing up in a culture where topics such as money, sex, and mental health are neither talked about or acknowledged makes it hard to understand. There is still a ton of shame attached to how I feel about my own body. I am curious about topics concerning sex and don’t know where or who to ask, I don’t even know if I have the right vocabulary to understand what it is that I want to ask. To give you insight: At the age of 25 I asked my OBGYN for the first time “I never acutally had the sex talk. Can…can we talk about sex?” Advocate for your health! (and safety first)
I think being in my twenties is a time that is delicate. I haven’t been an adult for long. I am still young and yet kids already tell me that I am old. In the eyes of senior citizens I am still a baby. I am genuinely looking forward to getting older. What an honor it will be to have witnessed myself grow through the seasons of life.
There are still more things I am scared of, but even more things I am curious about.
BE BOLD,
Soso